Deep Beneath Her Smile . . .
About me: i just cant be around you guys anymore.
i'm leaving all of you behind for good..
after getting so many criticism of life and myself..
and people thought criticism are the things that'll make a person stronger.
well it does to some and in some ways..
but have people ever thought about..having too much criticism...
and i really mean by too much will really affect a person not physically but mentally.
and i've had enough of it all..but guess what...
i finally get it to my head for the fact that..
i don't deserve to be around you guys..
i just don't deserve to have any of you guys in this complicated yet blessed life.
who wanna be around a problematic girl like me?
exactly...nobody.
i just cant afford to care anymore.
its simple as that..if people don't care..then i don't care.
i'm tired.i really am..
i'm always giving what people want..
always listening to what people want.
and at some point you people keep telling me to put myself first..
well guess what..if i were to put myself first,
i just wanna be away from everyone right now..
like i said..i just don't deserve you guys.
i see this clearly now.
and i don't want ya'll to come calling me and asking whats going on or am i ok..
i don't need your care anymore..
coz you guys don't need to know how aliah feels anymore.
i know some of you might be thinking..
what i'm saying here is all not true and i'm hiding the facts..
it's not that i didnt make the effort too..i did~
but please..i'm tried of not being heard when i'v got something to say.
i'm tired of getting hurt for the ones i care and love the most.
i'm tired of being accused of my old tricks when i'm changing..and ya'll should know.
it takes time to change a person as in completely.even if it means several years..
i'm tired of getting caught in the middle of other people's problems and bad situations.
i'm tired of fighting about other people.
it's always me trying to take care of people's feelings and what people think.
in other words..asik aliah jer yang selalu jage hati org lain..
sedang kan hati aku nie org tkde amek tau atau jage..
then i see no point in sticking around..
u guys might think i'm doing nothing but drawing attention to people..
u guys might even think im a attention seeker..
but hey..i'm just voicing out my thoughts..
You guys just go ahead and do whatever you guys want..
go and live that life to the fullest..
go and do whatever thing..at whenever and whereever time n place with whoever..
i don deserve to share a single moment of happiness with you guys.
i'm not gonna say anything or stop anyone from doing what they want.
you people should go have your spaces..
