And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Deep Beneath Her Smile . . .
About me: Name: Siti 'Aliah =)
Home: east side, Singapore
About Me: I'm 20.Born on the 12th of October 1990.
Fave Colour would be..
- Creamy Baby Pink
- Chocolatey Brown
- Navy Blue
- Sweet Teal/Turqoise
Into percussion.
Drumming with Sambateria and Bloco Singapura.
Loves to make friends..thou some gerls might think i have a problem with them..but i don't..just talk to me lah..i don't bite.
And On top of that,is trying to lead a simple life. =)
See my profile...
Monday, December 28, 2009
This post goes out to all my love ones..
i just cant be around you guys anymore.
i'm leaving all of you behind for good..
after getting so many criticism of life and myself..
and people thought criticism are the things that'll make a person stronger.
well it does to some and in some ways..
but have people ever thought about..having too much criticism...
and i really mean by too much will really affect a person not physically but mentally.
and i've had enough of it all..but guess what...
i finally get it to my head for the fact that..
i don't deserve to be around you guys..
i just don't deserve to have any of you guys in this complicated yet blessed life.
who wanna be around a problematic girl like me?
exactly...nobody.
i just cant afford to care anymore.
its simple as that..if people don't care..then i don't care.
i'm tired.i really am..
i'm always giving what people want..
always listening to what people want.
and at some point you people keep telling me to put myself first..
well guess what..if i were to put myself first,
i just wanna be away from everyone right now..
like i said..i just don't deserve you guys.
i see this clearly now.
and i don't want ya'll to come calling me and asking whats going on or am i ok..
i don't need your care anymore..
coz you guys don't need to know how aliah feels anymore.
i know some of you might be thinking..
what i'm saying here is all not true and i'm hiding the facts..
it's not that i didnt make the effort too..i did~
but please..i'm tried of not being heard when i'v got something to say.
i'm tired of getting hurt for the ones i care and love the most.
i'm tired of being accused of my old tricks when i'm changing..and ya'll should know.
it takes time to change a person as in completely.even if it means several years..
i'm tired of getting caught in the middle of other people's problems and bad situations.
i'm tired of fighting about other people.
it's always me trying to take care of people's feelings and what people think.
in other words..asik aliah jer yang selalu jage hati org lain..
sedang kan hati aku nie org tkde amek tau atau jage..
then i see no point in sticking around..
u guys might think i'm doing nothing but drawing attention to people..
u guys might even think im a attention seeker..
but hey..i'm just voicing out my thoughts..
You guys just go ahead and do whatever you guys want..
go and live that life to the fullest..
go and do whatever thing..at whenever and whereever time n place with whoever..
i don deserve to share a single moment of happiness with you guys.
i'm not gonna say anything or stop anyone from doing what they want.
you people should go have your spaces..
i just cant be around you guys anymore.
i'm leaving all of you behind for good..
after getting so many criticism of life and myself..
and people thought criticism are the things that'll make a person stronger.
well it does to some and in some ways..
but have people ever thought about..having too much criticism...
and i really mean by too much will really affect a person not physically but mentally.
and i've had enough of it all..but guess what...
i finally get it to my head for the fact that..
i don't deserve to be around you guys..
i just don't deserve to have any of you guys in this complicated yet blessed life.
who wanna be around a problematic girl like me?
exactly...nobody.
i just cant afford to care anymore.
its simple as that..if people don't care..then i don't care.
i'm tired.i really am..
i'm always giving what people want..
always listening to what people want.
and at some point you people keep telling me to put myself first..
well guess what..if i were to put myself first,
i just wanna be away from everyone right now..
like i said..i just don't deserve you guys.
i see this clearly now.
and i don't want ya'll to come calling me and asking whats going on or am i ok..
i don't need your care anymore..
coz you guys don't need to know how aliah feels anymore.
i know some of you might be thinking..
what i'm saying here is all not true and i'm hiding the facts..
it's not that i didnt make the effort too..i did~
but please..i'm tried of not being heard when i'v got something to say.
i'm tired of getting hurt for the ones i care and love the most.
i'm tired of being accused of my old tricks when i'm changing..and ya'll should know.
it takes time to change a person as in completely.even if it means several years..
i'm tired of getting caught in the middle of other people's problems and bad situations.
i'm tired of fighting about other people.
it's always me trying to take care of people's feelings and what people think.
in other words..asik aliah jer yang selalu jage hati org lain..
sedang kan hati aku nie org tkde amek tau atau jage..
then i see no point in sticking around..
u guys might think i'm doing nothing but drawing attention to people..
u guys might even think im a attention seeker..
but hey..i'm just voicing out my thoughts..
You guys just go ahead and do whatever you guys want..
go and live that life to the fullest..
go and do whatever thing..at whenever and whereever time n place with whoever..
i don deserve to share a single moment of happiness with you guys.
i'm not gonna say anything or stop anyone from doing what they want.
you people should go have your spaces..
To some people...
L.O.V.E
is just a four letter word.
That's why and when those people would just go around and say it.
But do they really mean it?
that's when people always get played ard and ends up getting hurt.
but then again..it's all based on individual mindset..yet..
these kind of people..
they just don't care what or how people feels sometimes...
L.O.V.E
is just a four letter word.
That's why and when those people would just go around and say it.
But do they really mean it?
that's when people always get played ard and ends up getting hurt.
but then again..it's all based on individual mindset..yet..
these kind of people..
they just don't care what or how people feels sometimes...
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Feeling down? I know i am..
Wanna smile within seconds?!
If you're a Cat lover like me♥...
Please do watch this short video...
=)
Wanna smile within seconds?!
If you're a Cat lover like me♥...
Please do watch this short video...
=)
Dear bloggie...
Things been really bad lately..
there's been so many changes this year alone..
but i guess the ultimate change is yet to be confirmed..
i can only know that after tomorrow..
Where Fate is leading me to? I have no idea...
don't even have a clue..
I'm only 19...and i didnt expect myself to be stuck in any of this..
not like this..facing other people's own problems.
they caused it to happen..not me..yet i'm the one facing it.
whether its fair or not?
who am i to judge thou i do feel that way..
i should not be complaining...should i?
i've been going through so much changes since i was 12..
i believe no one can ever understand how i feel..
even if a person were to imagine themselves being in my shoes..
will they really get it?
I'm so tired..i really am.
But then again..
with the help of all my beloved friends around me..
I guess its really ok to cry now..as its not good to seal things deep down inside.
gotta think positive..gotta be prepared for the worst.
Let's just have some faith with what ever may come from tomorrow onwards..
Things been really bad lately..
there's been so many changes this year alone..
but i guess the ultimate change is yet to be confirmed..
i can only know that after tomorrow..
Where Fate is leading me to? I have no idea...
don't even have a clue..
I'm only 19...and i didnt expect myself to be stuck in any of this..
not like this..facing other people's own problems.
they caused it to happen..not me..yet i'm the one facing it.
whether its fair or not?
who am i to judge thou i do feel that way..
i should not be complaining...should i?
i've been going through so much changes since i was 12..
i believe no one can ever understand how i feel..
even if a person were to imagine themselves being in my shoes..
will they really get it?
I'm so tired..i really am.
But then again..
with the help of all my beloved friends around me..
I guess its really ok to cry now..as its not good to seal things deep down inside.
gotta think positive..gotta be prepared for the worst.
Let's just have some faith with what ever may come from tomorrow onwards..
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Look! Look!!!
i came across something cute today!!!
awww.... =)
i came across something cute today!!!
awww.... =)
Aliah likes this! =)
Sometimes people are easily blinded by their anger without realising people's concern.
And.....
Sometimes people just don't know how to appreciate other people's concern towards them.
And.....
Sometimes people just don't know how to appreciate other people's concern towards them.
Friday, December 11, 2009
For the past 2 hours,
I took a little trip along memory lane.
Went to visit a site i've never looked at for several months now.
and i've noticed...How fast people can really change within a year.
and i even took the time to look back at those smiley times..
How it felt at that moment n how our laughs were like...
i just hope those moments could be spared once more before it ends.
I took a little trip along memory lane.
Went to visit a site i've never looked at for several months now.
and i've noticed...How fast people can really change within a year.
and i even took the time to look back at those smiley times..
How it felt at that moment n how our laughs were like...
i just hope those moments could be spared once more before it ends.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I've been wondering...
How people can be so happy at one point and instantly be sad at another?!
it's fascinating how emotions can be changed within seconds..
Alrighty...i'm a complete weirdo!
always talking to myself here?
Oh well..
No other place to go to free my mind...
or even say random things...
No other place but here...
=)
How people can be so happy at one point and instantly be sad at another?!
it's fascinating how emotions can be changed within seconds..
Alrighty...i'm a complete weirdo!
always talking to myself here?
Oh well..
No other place to go to free my mind...
or even say random things...
No other place but here...
=)
You know what i think?!
I think i should have a new change in life.
i should just shove my feelings all to one side..
and just let loose..
Coz these are the things i see people keep doing nowadays..
they like don't care...just wanna have fun..care about what they want..
while i've been doing nothing but caring for others instead of my needs.
yar....maybe i should not tie myself that tight.
in fact..i should not care bout other people's feelings and what they think of me.
i should just go make new friends, explore more, do things my way.
Where and whenever i want to?
Coz im thinking..
i've been tied down for too long..
that i forgot exactly when to loosen up when i need it the most.
It's just weird on how people see the world differently from me.
I just can't see the world like you guys do..
i see it as a place where i can't trust and be comfortable with.
Coz i know and believe things will keep changing.
Oh well........
I think i should have a new change in life.
i should just shove my feelings all to one side..
and just let loose..
Coz these are the things i see people keep doing nowadays..
they like don't care...just wanna have fun..care about what they want..
while i've been doing nothing but caring for others instead of my needs.
yar....maybe i should not tie myself that tight.
in fact..i should not care bout other people's feelings and what they think of me.
i should just go make new friends, explore more, do things my way.
Where and whenever i want to?
Coz im thinking..
i've been tied down for too long..
that i forgot exactly when to loosen up when i need it the most.
It's just weird on how people see the world differently from me.
I just can't see the world like you guys do..
i see it as a place where i can't trust and be comfortable with.
Coz i know and believe things will keep changing.
Oh well........
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Helloooooo...People?!
Why nobody wanna play Left 4 Dead with me?!
It's been so many many weeks close to a month redi!!
I hardly have time to play games...
But when i got time to spare, takde orang nak teman...
You all so mean!!!
sedih seh.
=(
Why nobody wanna play Left 4 Dead with me?!
It's been so many many weeks close to a month redi!!
I hardly have time to play games...
But when i got time to spare, takde orang nak teman...
You all so mean!!!
sedih seh.
=(
It's been some time since we took a deep breath together...
when was the last time we even did so?
Oh yes..on 27th November..
i notice..it's seriously hard to have you all to myself.
to just talk to you or even share my days or what's been happening at work and stuff.
to even voice out all my frustrations..i just can't..
coz you're busy caring for those in need around you.
But then again..
understood everyone need's their own space.
and i respect that.
i'm guessing, this is the time for me to do some soul searching for myself?
mcm paham kan aliah?
Besides that,
the KL trip is coming up..Yay me!
and these are the only time i get to spare..
Totally am excited about this weekend.
but as for next week onwards,
will be busy with work, performance and rehearsals for sure.
Hope i'd have enough rest over this weekend.
need to boost the energy for the up coming weeks..
Oh Well...
Let's make the days count! =)
when was the last time we even did so?
Oh yes..on 27th November..
i notice..it's seriously hard to have you all to myself.
to just talk to you or even share my days or what's been happening at work and stuff.
to even voice out all my frustrations..i just can't..
coz you're busy caring for those in need around you.
But then again..
understood everyone need's their own space.
and i respect that.
i'm guessing, this is the time for me to do some soul searching for myself?
mcm paham kan aliah?
Besides that,
the KL trip is coming up..Yay me!
and these are the only time i get to spare..
Totally am excited about this weekend.
but as for next week onwards,
will be busy with work, performance and rehearsals for sure.
Hope i'd have enough rest over this weekend.
need to boost the energy for the up coming weeks..
Oh Well...
Let's make the days count! =)
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Dear Bloggie,
Sometimes i feel as thou i don't really exist in this crowded streets.
Sometimes i just feel like my mind has shut down on it's own.
Sometimes i feel like i need to be away from the world as it is.
Sometimes i feel i should just shut up and not care what people think of me.
Sometimes i just don't know when to quit when I'm knocked down hard.
Well...that's just sometimes...i guess?!
Sometimes i feel as thou i don't really exist in this crowded streets.
Sometimes i just feel like my mind has shut down on it's own.
Sometimes i feel like i need to be away from the world as it is.
Sometimes i feel i should just shut up and not care what people think of me.
Sometimes i just don't know when to quit when I'm knocked down hard.
Well...that's just sometimes...i guess?!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
I really do appreciate everyone's care and concern towards me..
but still..ya'll should know me better?
No matter how upset or hurt i am with the situations i face in life...
i'll always appreciate it all..
i'll always be thankful...
cause i believe...
this challenges i face are the ones that will make me stronger.
and yes,it has made me of who i am today...
i'm not tryin to think so highly of myself..
it's just something i should be proud of over the years.
Let's just face it geng?
there will always be distractions in life no matter how many times people try to ignore or even prevent from things to happen.
and to me...
i'm just a normal human being thats accepting all the situation i have to face.
we can't say if it's fair or not.
who are we to judge a person's life base on what our eyes can see or what our ears can hear?
who are we to even predict whats gonna happen next if what we're facing is not good.
so yeah..thats my point..
correct me if im wrong...
i'm all ears..
ok can?
ok go!
but still..ya'll should know me better?
No matter how upset or hurt i am with the situations i face in life...
i'll always appreciate it all..
i'll always be thankful...
cause i believe...
this challenges i face are the ones that will make me stronger.
and yes,it has made me of who i am today...
i'm not tryin to think so highly of myself..
it's just something i should be proud of over the years.
Let's just face it geng?
there will always be distractions in life no matter how many times people try to ignore or even prevent from things to happen.
and to me...
i'm just a normal human being thats accepting all the situation i have to face.
we can't say if it's fair or not.
who are we to judge a person's life base on what our eyes can see or what our ears can hear?
who are we to even predict whats gonna happen next if what we're facing is not good.
so yeah..thats my point..
correct me if im wrong...
i'm all ears..
ok can?
ok go!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Attention to all Starbucks Coffee Lovers! =)
Wokay...
Obviously it's written there Clearly!
Don't need me to break it down for you right?!
So Yeah..I'm just doing a lil favor for my friends at Marina Square..
and of course doing my part to spread as much love as possible here.
So Please do Spread it to your peeps well..
Let me highlight to ya'll something from the picture again.
Fyi... It's On The House People!
At Any Starbucks OutLet!
Ok Can?
Ok Go!
=)
Right now,
i'm just not in the mood..
So people please.....SHUT UP!
Nah..Sorry! Please don't get me wrong.
Bukan nak buat perangai arh..
Nothing wrong here.
I just wanna shut myself down for awhile..
You know? that "need to be alone" kind of feeling?
coz all i can ever do right is just replace people..
Btw..MsQ tgh Kecoh or what?!
been workin full shift 2 days straight.
so many things to do n teach n even learn.
I'm so so shagged right now..
need a short break from work..
and seriously..i just cant wait for 2moro's rehearsals..
can just drum that tensions out.
=)
i'm just not in the mood..
So people please.....SHUT UP!
Nah..Sorry! Please don't get me wrong.
Bukan nak buat perangai arh..
Nothing wrong here.
I just wanna shut myself down for awhile..
You know? that "need to be alone" kind of feeling?
coz all i can ever do right is just replace people..
Btw..MsQ tgh Kecoh or what?!
been workin full shift 2 days straight.
so many things to do n teach n even learn.
I'm so so shagged right now..
need a short break from work..
and seriously..i just cant wait for 2moro's rehearsals..
can just drum that tensions out.
=)
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
This feelings that we feel deep down inside.
it comes naturally..
We can never buy it..
nor can we ever rent it..
We can never request it.
nor can we ever demand for it.
We can't even expect it.
coz you'll end up getting the unexpected.
Even if we could think of a million ways to get it.
you'll never own it.
it comes naturally..
We can never buy it..
nor can we ever rent it..
We can never request it.
nor can we ever demand for it.
We can't even expect it.
coz you'll end up getting the unexpected.
Even if we could think of a million ways to get it.
you'll never own it.
Thankz for telling me off.
I don't mean to think negative or even be emo.
Maybe you should just stop n listen to what you say to me?
Understood the part where you end up losing everything.
But what makes you think i'm the same?
If i knew...how you really felt from the start,
i wouldn't bother going that extra mile..
I don't mean to think negative or even be emo.
Maybe you should just stop n listen to what you say to me?
Understood the part where you end up losing everything.
But what makes you think i'm the same?
If i knew...how you really felt from the start,
i wouldn't bother going that extra mile..